I’m still learning. And it is so easy when you’re still learning things, to be open to different views and interpretations and end up being a part of a misinterpretation because well, we are still learning.
I met some missionaries a few weeks ago (the post is weeks past due). These missionaries were mormons . I was walking my dog with my little brother after work because the weather was still nice and there were these ladies who were missionaries who were mormons also walking in my neighborhood and we crossed paths. I said hello and they said hello back and began talking about who they are and their views and such. I was very nice and listened but I had no interest in becoming a missionary or sitting down to talk or visit their church. They spoke about how they read the Bible but also the book of Mormon and just a lot of information as I zoned in and out while remaining polite, because I felt that was the right thing to do, and I really just wanted to enjoy my walk. Finally I said “I understand your view but I believe we should remember who we are truly called to be and to be a positive light in this world and not put a division on faith”. The ladies agreed and tried to give me their book which I kindly declined. They took my number and we all went on about our business. We continued on our walk and my little brother goes
“I’m disappointed in you”
I looked at him and was like me “why?”
“Why didnt you mention your church or talk more about your faith? You just listened” he said.
I was shocked I was actually more than shocked. I was shook!! He made absolute sense. Here was an opportunity to be on fire and unapologetic about my faith, to release unto others the light that God called me to be and I zoned out. I just listened because I wanted to be polite and I was fine with it because it wasn’t going to actually affect me, but what about those it would affect?
How could I let an opportunity like this slip past my fingers? I’m always saying how I want to impact THE world and I couldn’t even impact MY world!
My brother said what if it was a test from God and you failed. I had failed miserably. I honestly began to think like omg I shouldn’t have given them my number they might use it against me ( obviously I watch too many movies), I was a mess, like I actually let God down in my head. I immediately got home and called my best friend.
Let’s take a minute to thank God for Godly relationships….Alright, so with a quickness my friend reminded me that our God is not spiteful and that there is grace and room for growth and wisdom. Even when we think we missed a moment or opportunity we should use it as a lesson to not miss anymore. I am so thankful because in that moment I recognized His grace and looking back have realized that I am even more aware of the impact that still lies within me, within all of us. We are still called to plant seeds in His kingdom because it is not about how we feel or how capable we think we are but it is about remembering how He has made us, despite or mistakes, or moments when we are into ourselves. We are to live out our lives as truly redeemed and be a proper steward of our life.
At a moment where I dramatically felt I lost it all, I gained 10 times more… and I never heard from the ladies either which I guess is fine. If I never get to make a second impression. I pray that someone somewhere will make the first impression I should have and make it impactful.
I know that I am still learning, and I will continue to learn because His word says:
the wise hear and increase in learning, and the one who understands obtain guidance